Bored

Bled from the nose again. Luckily am at home, I quit the job at Pioneer. Have become a consultant now, would raise funds for the group.

Today

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Thoughts of the day

Its not issues, its our attitude towards those issues that matters.

Learn to say no when required and be clear and firm about it.

Tackling Disturbing Thoughts

Read this really good article while in college. Has some thoughtful notes on life and makes a good read.

A Monk was walking with his disciples. A group of villagers approached him and reprimanded him as a lot of youngsters had become his disciples. After patiently listening to them, he said, “My disciples in the next village are awaiting my discourse, so please allow me to go. On my return you can present whatever complaints you have against me?” These words were uttered gently and with no hint of hostility.

The villagers were shocked and asked, “Are you not upset by our harsh words? You listen to our accusations as though we were complementing you.” The Monk answered their question with a question, “As a monk I am not supposed to take food twice on any day. Suppose you are not aware of this and after treating me to a lunch, you also prepare dinner for me. You look forward to my company at dinner and in turn, I don’t come. Would your food go waste?”. The villagers replied, “No, we would distribute the meal amongst ourselves.” The Monk continued his reply, “In the same way, whatever criticism you heaped on me, would remain with you, as I am not taking it on myself. So I am not hurt.”

The Monk continued on his way. On the way he told his disciples, “I am feeling very hot.” The disciples were shocked since it was a very cold day. He continued: “I am not talking of the external heat. I see in your minds there is so much anger at the way the villagers behaved. Instead of being compassionate, you are all upset, and it is that heat that I am sensing now.”
He explained, "There are two types of actions.

1. The actions of our body.

2. The actions of our thoughts and feelings."

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The Monk continued, "What determines the quality of our life is the movement of thoughts and feelings. More than negative experiences, it is the negative interpretations of the negative experiences that affect our life. So do not allow disturbing thoughts to control and ruin your life."

Email ids

Yesterdays comments about my blog made me think a lot. I now plan to use this blog purely for fun and entertainment. Henceforth shall not write about anything thats making my friends think. So just listening to music "Dil Chahta Hai". Also created some email ids to pass the time:

bestguyintheworld@yahoo.com
smartrockingguy@gmail.com
smartestguyintheworld@gmail.com
smartestdudeintheworld@gmail.com
smartestdudealive@gmail.com
smartrockingdude@yahoo.com
smartdudeindia@gmail.com
smartdudeindia@yahoo.com
dudesmartindia@yahoo.com
vivrockstheworld@yahoo.com
vivekrulestheworld@gmail.com
vivekismarried@gmail.com
vivekisbored@gmail.com

Am thinking how good is it an idea to auction them:)

Life's biggest question

I have completed the Botswana presentations and have mailed the final version. Have also co-ordinated for the email addresses. So pretty much completed my work for the day. Will go to the gym in some time. Tried calling Anu, she is taking her afternoon nap. She has been at her home in hyderabad this whole week.....did not even inform me that she would be staying here this long. All this makes me wonder and question my ability about understanding her. I mean I have spent my whole life with 3 beautiful women around me (my mother and two sisters) and I still do not understand them. How am I gonna understand Anu.

Let me think...I am just a simple guy in today's world but I strongly feel that since the dawn of creation man must have had this question, this question that has spanned centuries, broken, mended, changed the course of history. It is a question great men have searched for, prophets have prayed for, and philosophers have died seeking an answer for. It is the question above all other questions. It is a question yet unanswered. And what is this mysterious question that countless men throughout history have sought? The question is how do we understand women?

So whats the answer...I have been thinking all this while and the answer to this question is actually very simple:). I am not gonna answer it for now though. I want to try and experiment it. Stretch your imagination and then think for me for a moment and there comes the answer.

Early morning

Its 4:45 in the morning now, woke up at 3, don't know why. Checked my yahoo mailbox, theres a mail from Mehul, need to complete the fund documentation today. Another mail from astrology.com says:

"Dear Vivek, Here is your horoscope for Thursday, July 17: It's a good time for you to recalibrate your activities so you can feel more balanced at home or at work. Things are a little out of hand, but it's not too hard for you to make them right again."

Although I do not believe much in it, the statement pretty much summarises what I need to do today and every other day. Things are in a mess around me and I really need to work towards setting them in place. I know nothing is too hard to make right but certain things require time and a lot of patience and I should continue working towards making them right.

Its nearing 5:15, I'll brush now, have tea and go for a walk. I will have a good day:).

Live another day

Hmm.....another day goes by with me being in the office doing almost nothing, although the logo was finalised in the first half today. Its funny that people's egos play such a critical role even in the most important and sensitive things in Business. I learnt something really important today - its always very necessary to balance people's expectations, their egos with my perception and my expectations of the people and the situations.

Had good lunch at 'Aroma of China', a cute little chinese restaurant at the City Center Mall close to the office. Had chicken, fish, lamb, duck and lots of rice. I'm still feeling full. Skipped gym, replied to Prakashbhai's mails, sent the cashflow projections and the scanned copy of the MoU with Feedback Ventures. had to reply to Prakashbhai's mail regarding funding for 'VAC Infra'. This is regarding funding for 'VAC Infra', the company I floated in the realty and urban infrastructure space. I want to be a big big guy......

A big guy like...hmm...a big influential don like.....Robin Hood or 'The Godfather' or Frank Lucas, someone who beats the already-screwed-up-system and does good, really good work for himself and the people and the society. I know it seems funny, but I wanna be like this.

Also, I want to do research in economics and psychology. I want to invent something. I want to inspire people. I want to write a book. I want to run as fast as i can. I want to play. I want to fly. I want to be a pilot. I want to sleep well. I want to be out of debt. I want to teach in a playschool. I want to hug someone. I want to adopt a orphan baby girl. I want to be robin hood. I want to laugh. I want to live.... but life seems to get in the way of all this:)

Working on a Sunday

Sunday - Reached office at 11 in the morning, they were mopping and cleaning the office so sat in Dhiraj's room and worked on the PPT. PV and Vinay were busy with the attendees list preparations. I worked till noon, called Anu, no answer, so came home, had a parantha for lunch while watching 'The Departed' on HBO. Went to the colony for a walk at 6 in the evening, came back at 8, had pani puri on the way. Had dinner. Now - blogging while listening to 'I will survive' by Gloria Gaynor, 'Numb' and 'Somewhere I belong' by Linkin Park.

"I’ve got nothing to say,

I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face,

I was confused, Looking everywhere only to find,

That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind,

So what am I, I can’t justify the way everyone is looking at me,

And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own.

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real,

I wanna let go of the pain I’ve held so long,

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real,

I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along,

Somewhere I belong."

Good night Vivek.

Long tiring day

Today was an extremely long day. Woke up at 4:45 in the morning (am not sleeping well lately), got ready, drove to the station, picked up Anu, dropped her at her parent's place, washed the car, had tea, drove back home. While waiting for Anu at the station, called Rani, spoke about her course, fees, tests, job and marriage. I really want her to settle down with a good good guy soon.

Reached office at 10. Was the only guy since saturday is a work-from-home day. I can work from home but I prefer being in the office. Had breakfast (a papaya plate and coffee) and checked mails in the first 10 min. Started to get bored, called a broker, discussed a secret business. Skipped lunch, then worked on the logo and the Botswana ppt in the afternoon. Got bored again, went for a walk at 5:30 in the evening. Walked till KBR Park and back. Met some more brokers at 7 regarding a BPO business opportunity. Pretty good plan.

Was in two minds - whether to go to Anu's house or my home. Called up Anu, no answer, so came home. Ma made Kichidi for dinner, watched 'Kaun Banega Superstar' while having dinner. Today is the grand finale of the show and they are dragging the episode. So I am in my room blogging.

Birthday

Birthday was a good day. Ma made cake early morning and gulabjamun the previous night. Wishes started pouring in very early morning, Rani called first up. Friends from GMR called up. Went to work, wore the new blue shirt, all my colleagues and friends wished me. PV gifted me a pair of black leather shoes that he bought from London, the team from Maven gifted me a Shirt and then we had a cake and I got to blow out the candles. Replied to all those who wished me through email and scrap'ed me on orkut. Reminded someone about my birthday:) (no points for guessing who). Spent the day at the office, reached home at 10:30 in the night, had dinner and off to bed.
The main purpose of this post is to say thank you so much to all my friends, colleagues, well-wishers and everyone else. The thought that so many people remember and care made the day really special :–).

Birthday

Today is my birthday.